OVERSHADOW

 

I had been anticipating this blog update on a much different note than what I am about to share.  I couldn't wait to tell what all had unfolded since Florida.  Actually our friend wrote a little song:

....Well let me tell you a story bout a

 a man named Nathan, Had 4 kids took his

family on vacation, then one day

he was hangin at the beach......

and took a job in Virginia!

Yes, that is how it happened, we were soaking up sun rays one day, then finding out Nathan had a job opportunity in Richmond, VA for a permit move and finding out on the next day we would be expecting #5!  I could see God's favor unfolding in our life.  I had been blessed, waiting so patiently for another. His timing for us to have another baby would be perfect....... after losing the last 2 (just as Abraham and Sarah where blessed when trusting the Father) .  I was fighting emotional battles in my head (things don't feel right for another pregnancy, I'm not throwing up, every pregnancy is different, I think I'm craving hot stuff).However, I began to focus prayer on the babies development, stages, etc..  We had sold our home, our things, downsized our life so we could all be together again on the road with Nathan, while he worked.  After 3 months of camper living I finally felt like we (the kids and I) were adjusting.  Nathan had already been living like this for over a year, just without us.  So 2 weeks ago we left Albany, Georgia for a move to VA, currently in a hotel suite getting to do my laundry for free (which is a bonus from camper living).  While reading Psalm 138 daily to keep my mind focused on what the Lord was dong in our life.   I really was fighting back so much mother instinct that things with my body just did not seem right, but I'm not a Faith person by nature.  Nathan is, he was doing everything to keep me positive.  You see he teases me about being a Thomas, I would've had to see the holes in His hands, I want to feel the breeze to be reminded of His presence.  My prayer warrior Ladies were on their knees for me, they were lifting my name and this pregnancy up to Him!

Thank You Ladies!!

So last week I was determined I would no longer let the mourning of a life I had not lost yet get the best of me!  I begin reading The Women of Christmas by Liz Curtis Higgs and my daily reading of the Word fell right into what this book is about also.  I began to pray I wanted to be like Mary and Elizabeth I want that unquestionable, unshakable faith.  I want Luke1:35 in my life.

The angel replied to her: 

The Holy Spirit will come upon you, and the

power of the Most High will overshadow you.....

I prayed that my King would overshadow us during this time of favor on our life.  He would give me unshakable faith during this pregnancy.  For 5 days I stepped out in uncomfortable faith ways; buying a few maternity shorts at Goodwill, knowing I would need them in July and a week by week pregnancy book (yes I know you would think 7 pregnancies I don't need that book, but I think I only read that book with the first 1). 

Well yesterday I went in for a Dr visit, because I had some light spotting over the weekend and given my history they advised to see me ASAP.  I wasn't due for an appointment till week 9 (2 more weeks).  After a 2 hour visit, ultrasound, examination, blood drawn, and leaving with not much hope of having a successful pregnancy, I got the call today I would need to come in Wednesday morning for another D&C.  My levels were really high, but there is not viable sign of life and/or a possible molar.  My heart is broken, I do long for another and I know I have 4 wonderful children, but those four do not replace the pain of the 3 I've not held in my arms.  God whispered today:  My favor is still on you Sarah, you are my Daughter, I know your hearts joys & pains.  My power still will OVERSHADOW you just as it did My mother when I bled on the cross for your sin.  So as I find everything in my flesh to embrace a 3rd miscarriage for His glory, I pray for you dear friend that when trials come and go you will remember WHO overshadows you, and not ask the whys, the how's, or the whens but His everlasting PRESENCE to cover you.

 

P.S. Yes I'm devastating my oldest child because we are having Thanksgiving at Cracker Barrel, He cannot grasp this fact that we have to eat out.  He's only been spoiled to 9 years of homemade pumpkin pie!

From Texas toooo FLORIDEEE

I can't do much complaining about camper living full time when I'm in Florida.  We arrived here on the 25th and have settled in with the snow birds.  However not without excitement on the way here.  We had our first HUGE bump in the road on the way here.  We blew out a tire on the camper going through the Louisiana bayou's on interstate 10.  Scary thing is Nathan had to change the tire on a bridge with about 4ft of space (& that is thinking on the big side).  I didn't take a picture, we were just praying a semi was not going to fly by and hit us going 70 mph.  We arrived safely in Perdido Key, Florida at Playa Del Rio RV Park and Yacht Club.  We have the Inter coastal Waterway  to the back of us and across the road down a private boardwalk we have the Gulf of Mexico.  The weather has been great only 1 rainy day.  The kids and I have spent most afternoons soaking up the sun and sand after school of course.  The beach is really empty this time of year, all the chairs and loungers put away make the sand look never ending.  Nathan had a few days off and we went and toured the Navy Aviation Museum (we are about 20 minutes from Pensacola).  If you are ever this way I highly recommend the museum, so much history about the Navy and every plane that they've ever flown.  We got to see the Blue Angels practicing for the upcoming year!  We had a low key Halloween.  The kids carved out Uncle Si and IJ made a Lego Head pumpkin they took home 1st and 2nd at the RV park get together.  Everyone was so sweet and gave the kids candy.  Their parents bribed them by telling them they could pick out their very own bag of candy if we could stick to low key festivities (it worked) The next day when all the candy was 1/2 off we let them pick their own.

  I know some of you are dying to know what my schedule has been like and how the kids are adjusting.  My schedule as follows:

7am wake coffee/quiet time

8-9am breakfast for kids

9-1 2 school for the kids

Lunch

Rest of the day is usually spent picking up the camper thinking about what will be for dinner and getting school ready for next day.  Laundry is every 3 days. 

I guess things just seem minimized, but the family time has been maximized!  The kids have all adjusted well to doing this (they just love being with their daddy). 

I don't want to lose sight of seeking the Lord no matter where my front porch maybe; my desire to know him more should never change. 

I have asked on thing from the Lord; it is what I desire: to dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, gazing on the beauty of the Lord and seeking Him in His temple.  Psalm 27:4

His temple is where I bow my head in prayer, where I journal my deepest thoughts and continue to allow Him to uncover the things that He knows I must change to be more fruitful.