OVERSHADOW

 

I had been anticipating this blog update on a much different note than what I am about to share.  I couldn't wait to tell what all had unfolded since Florida.  Actually our friend wrote a little song:

....Well let me tell you a story bout a

 a man named Nathan, Had 4 kids took his

family on vacation, then one day

he was hangin at the beach......

and took a job in Virginia!

Yes, that is how it happened, we were soaking up sun rays one day, then finding out Nathan had a job opportunity in Richmond, VA for a permit move and finding out on the next day we would be expecting #5!  I could see God's favor unfolding in our life.  I had been blessed, waiting so patiently for another. His timing for us to have another baby would be perfect....... after losing the last 2 (just as Abraham and Sarah where blessed when trusting the Father) .  I was fighting emotional battles in my head (things don't feel right for another pregnancy, I'm not throwing up, every pregnancy is different, I think I'm craving hot stuff).However, I began to focus prayer on the babies development, stages, etc..  We had sold our home, our things, downsized our life so we could all be together again on the road with Nathan, while he worked.  After 3 months of camper living I finally felt like we (the kids and I) were adjusting.  Nathan had already been living like this for over a year, just without us.  So 2 weeks ago we left Albany, Georgia for a move to VA, currently in a hotel suite getting to do my laundry for free (which is a bonus from camper living).  While reading Psalm 138 daily to keep my mind focused on what the Lord was dong in our life.   I really was fighting back so much mother instinct that things with my body just did not seem right, but I'm not a Faith person by nature.  Nathan is, he was doing everything to keep me positive.  You see he teases me about being a Thomas, I would've had to see the holes in His hands, I want to feel the breeze to be reminded of His presence.  My prayer warrior Ladies were on their knees for me, they were lifting my name and this pregnancy up to Him!

Thank You Ladies!!

So last week I was determined I would no longer let the mourning of a life I had not lost yet get the best of me!  I begin reading The Women of Christmas by Liz Curtis Higgs and my daily reading of the Word fell right into what this book is about also.  I began to pray I wanted to be like Mary and Elizabeth I want that unquestionable, unshakable faith.  I want Luke1:35 in my life.

The angel replied to her: 

The Holy Spirit will come upon you, and the

power of the Most High will overshadow you.....

I prayed that my King would overshadow us during this time of favor on our life.  He would give me unshakable faith during this pregnancy.  For 5 days I stepped out in uncomfortable faith ways; buying a few maternity shorts at Goodwill, knowing I would need them in July and a week by week pregnancy book (yes I know you would think 7 pregnancies I don't need that book, but I think I only read that book with the first 1). 

Well yesterday I went in for a Dr visit, because I had some light spotting over the weekend and given my history they advised to see me ASAP.  I wasn't due for an appointment till week 9 (2 more weeks).  After a 2 hour visit, ultrasound, examination, blood drawn, and leaving with not much hope of having a successful pregnancy, I got the call today I would need to come in Wednesday morning for another D&C.  My levels were really high, but there is not viable sign of life and/or a possible molar.  My heart is broken, I do long for another and I know I have 4 wonderful children, but those four do not replace the pain of the 3 I've not held in my arms.  God whispered today:  My favor is still on you Sarah, you are my Daughter, I know your hearts joys & pains.  My power still will OVERSHADOW you just as it did My mother when I bled on the cross for your sin.  So as I find everything in my flesh to embrace a 3rd miscarriage for His glory, I pray for you dear friend that when trials come and go you will remember WHO overshadows you, and not ask the whys, the how's, or the whens but His everlasting PRESENCE to cover you.

 

P.S. Yes I'm devastating my oldest child because we are having Thanksgiving at Cracker Barrel, He cannot grasp this fact that we have to eat out.  He's only been spoiled to 9 years of homemade pumpkin pie!